Monday, May 2, 2016

Thoughts of the Evolution of Creation

This morning my mind was wandering in typical Teresa Wilkinson style, while eating my breakfast. I was thinking about the un-publishing of The Phillamanteca: The Story of Jane. My creation my work for several years while I was beginning the healing process. The joyful sadness that I could take it down as I am past that point in my life. I am healed.

I was thinking of that process the years and time it took to get to this point. Then the idea of the evolution of creation came upon me. Cells forming a union, multiplying, dividing all working together to become something. The Divine Love behind that very small beginning. How our universe works and the miracle of the evolution of creation.

The cells above look like a piece of our universe when you compare the two.

Inside  each of us is the beginning of a universe. Inside everything on our planet Earth is a smaller universe, and inside that is a cellular universe and on and on and on. If you go to Google Earth you can put in your address or any location and the program will zoom you in or out from that point with satellite imagery. This puts me in a different perspective.

 I walk into my backyard and I have control over the plants that stay and grow and the ones that are pulled and die. I am the Divine Love that makes the decision in a moment of what is good and stays and what needs to perish for the greater good. Yet as I look at Google Earth and I think about the size of my domain the trees I affect, the flowers, vegetables and weeds that are in that domain. I realize just how small that domain truly is in perspective to the vast earth that is not my domain. 

My individual Divine Love and Guidance is very very small, but very important to my well being and that of my family. I am not disparaging that my impact is minute. I am having an awe filled moment of the gift of life. The gift of our universe the wonder of cells uniting to create the world I am a piece of in this moment. This moment that is unlike the one just before it and the one that will come after it. 

I believe in God a Divine Love and Creator of our universe. I believe that the power of Divine Love has a plan for us and how we choose to express ourselves is the rejection or acceptance of a preordained path that was in place when those tiny cells came together and became. Ranchers and farmers discovered that by breeding animals with desirable traits together you could manipulate the product of your herd line to an optimum level, to resist disease, have tender meat, produce larger quantities of milk or do what needed to be done. A stronger breed of oxen to pull the cart to town. A small cuddly dog to sit in a lap or a huge dog to protect the family and the little lap dog. 


The evolution of creation has no limits, be it a human creator trying to make their domain stronger or friendlier or God, Divine Love, Spirit, there has to be a creator. Something that manipulates the stuff and encourages life to happen. 

This is why I am who I am, this is why you are who you are. Divine Love is at work. There is, and I suppose always will be things, that are beyond my control that I do not understand. Sometimes it is the rebirth of a weed in my back yard. I know I pulled the complete root out. (pesky things) Sometimes it is the gift of surprise, (oops I didn't plan for that). I know miracles happen, at least to us they are miracles because we don't see how it was possible, but I believe that everything is a part of a Divine Plan, one I don't always understand. I believe there are tasks that are absolutely mine to do, things that were set in motion before I was born. I also believe I have choices and those choices determine the outcome of the Divine Plan.

I leave you with this: If you are feeling small today go look at the weed in your back yard and remember you have dominion over it. If you are feeling larger than life, maybe a little full of yourself or ego minded go to Google Earth and put yourself back in perspective. Remember the evolution of creation is inside you and surrounds you all day, every day for eternity.


Saturday, April 30, 2016

My Journey as a Writer

Hello Friends,

It has been a long while since I have posted to this blog. There is a lot of news to share.

I have experienced a spiritual awakening. This process began during my serious illness many years ago, but I am now admitting to myself, through reflection and living what my path was and is.

I am still a storyteller, but my stories have taken a turn. This was something I was unwilling to share, therefore I did not write on this public forum. My spirituality I walked in fear of sharing, for these past few years.Now, I have been guided now to share.

Tomorrow, May 1st, 2016, The Phillamanteca: The Story of Jane will no longer be available. The story, although it is a metaphor for a period in my life, does not reflect the complete story of me. I will always feel that with help and guidance I had the strength to save my self, as Jane did, but there is so much more to the story. I may elect to publish the novel again at a later date, but for now it is going into my personal archives.

The spiritual journey I have enjoyed through this lifetime is remarkable. I am learning how wonderful our universal energy is and the  joy and  sorrow, miracle of life is all part of the amazing journey. My awakening began as a child. I rejected it for many many years, now I am aligning with my true calling and I am renewed to share.

Blessings and Namaste,

Teresa Wilkinson

Wednesday, January 6, 2016

I am Renewed

I am here to tell a story. I am Teresa the storyteller. I am Teresa Wilkinson. I am Teresa Meadows. This morning I became I am Renewed.

I started my morning waking from the deepest sleep, refreshed, happy, and fulfilled. My guidance told me to drive through the rain and spend time with my Mother. She was so happy to be awakened by me. My heart filled with joy to be received by love. Forgiveness has lead to a Mothers love, an experience I celebrate.

Driving back I received my name, Renewed.

I am Renewed with every breath I breathe. I breathe in peace and exhale love. My mustard seed faith brought me here. The Christ light within me was the beacon that showed the way. I am Renewed. I am the soulful being of love, created by Divine Intelligence.

I am approaching 2016, with guidance from within and from the universe. I will journey forward as Renewed. Guided by Divine Intelligence and Love.

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Affirmation "I go forth in the name of love."


I go forth in the name of love.

My first experience with baptism was April 10th, 1977. I was baptized with love in my heart for my parents whom told me this was mine to do. I did it with love in my heart for my church community at the time. I did it with absolute trust that although my 5th grade mind did not understand the complexity of the Christian baptism, I did it anyway. After all my mother made me a very special yellow dress for that Easter Sunday occasion.

My baptism was based on the scripture quote from Acts 2:38
“Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your
sins;and you shall receive the gift of the Holy Spirit.”

I was confused some by the literal translation of this scripture and trying to remember how much sin I had committed as an eleven year old child. I went to my father expressing my confusion and he encouraged me to follow my heart.

I followed my heart through out my life and I found the metaphysical definition of baptism works best for me.

Charles Fillmores, “The Revealing Word”, defines

Baptism, The spiritual cleansing of the mind.

My understanding of baptism now happens often. I would even venture to say baptism happens daily as I travel through some events in this current journey. Metaphysical baptism is a release. I follow my faith within to the expression of God within me, I release all of my stress and worries over to the universe and breathe in the peace and joy that is around me for I know that my highest good is the expression of God the Good. During times when I am uncertain and I turn to faith and follow my gut intuition I am baptised in the metaphysical definition of baptism.

There are times my human experience is confusing, I begin to doubt, have fear and question my path. I wonder whom am I really expressing, is it ego or higher consciousness. I wonder am I truly expressing my current highest good, I doubt who I am.

I usually become doubt filled directly after I have lost patience with those I love.

That seems simple. It shouldn’t be a big deal, but when I am studying grabbing a few moments of peace for meditation or prayer and I am interrupted I become frustrated, I react with a curt tone or unfavorable response to my loved ones and I doubt my path. How can I express my highest good, when I can not keep patience with those I cherish? Am I expressing the Best Christ I can be?

After these moments, I need a metaphysical baptism. I need a spiritual cleansing of the mind. I need to realize my Truth. I combat my doubt by baptising my mind and spirit with affirmations “I go forth in the name of love.”, I pray and meditate, I forgive and I emerge clean, spirit filled, and purified. I am at peace and I begin again. If I find myself reacting adversely 5 minutes later I excuse myself and do it again. Hence my mentioning sometimes I have to be baptised several times a day.  

This spiritual being having a human experience, has to remind herself this is my journey. I understand the metaphysical definition of baptism and the love it gives me a clearer understanding of that I am the bearer of peace and love. I can forgive, just as I am forgiven, I can love for I am loved, I can experience a spiritual cleansing of my mind at any time in any place.”I am baptized in the name of love and I go forth, as Jesus did, to be love, compassion, and kindness in the world.” quoted from June 24, 2015 Daily Word.


Sunday, July 27, 2014

The Spirit I Knew as Jan

My friend made her transition in early June. The loss devastated me in many ways. I was lost for a little bit, afraid and lonesome. Then the universe opened up to me. The following is my memorial to Jan. I miss her but I now see. I will always love, Jan.

My friend Jan made her transition June 11, 2014. My reaction that day was strong pain, tears of sorrow and wondering what was I suppose to do now, my mentor was out of reach. That day I was inconsolable. I have been told that being selfish during grief is human and to experience the feelings and honor my feelings. Now I can move forward and share with you my friend the ‘Spirit Known as Jan’.

Jan was joyful, beautiful, intelligent, worldly, and kind. I shared with Jan that I had become the insect disposer at work. Her reaction was “Oh, Teresa don’t kill them. Tell me you are not killing the bugs?” My vegetarian concerned with all beings in our world the consummate giver of unconditional love and peace to all beings human and other. This was my friend. I don’t think I will ever look at a bug or anything the same way after my short experience with Jan.

My Mother and I spent the Sunday afternoon before her transition with Jan. I will forever be happy for that time. She let me teach her how to build folders using Windows 7. She giggled with joy as she successfully transported files into folders. We talked and visited for 4 hours that day, during the time the subject went to her transition. Selfishly I told her she couldn't go she had too much to teach me. I changed the subject looking around her apartment wanting to ask questions about this and that. I have hundreds of questions.

When I began to receive the calling to become a minister Jan was the second person I told. I trusted her with my secrets, my loves, my joys, my pains and all things I about myself. Jan understood me. The subject came up once about super powers. A few days later after contemplation and meditation I proclaimed my super power was love. She was thrilled and agreed but she shared there was so much more to me. Jan saw all my possibilities, she encouraged me, loved me and cherished me. She kept reminding me, when life attacked that I was called to be a minister. Jan believed in me.

Jan never scolded or corrected me. I went to her with a trouble, something that had wounded me deeply. Jan had me create a list of the things that brought me joy. There was no particular order to the list just a list of things that brought me joy. I brought the list to her and I was laughing upon review my husband was not on my quickly made list. Jan brought to my attention that I had not included myself on the list either. “Do you not give yourself joy?” Jan asked me. I don’t think I answered that question, but it gave me so much to consider. I am taking steps to enjoy just being me.

The very last memory I have of Jan is beautiful. I realized how late is was our visit had lasted 4 hours. My husband would be looking for me, dinner was not ready and oh boy was I going to be late. Jan said, “I am really glad you joined the choir. I love your voice and energy up there. You know my kids begged me not to sing. I don’t have the breath control and just can’t sing, but I dated an opera singer for a time and he taught me how to sing ‘Happy Birthday’ in staccato.” Jan sang ‘Happy Birthday’ to me as I left. I was serenaded by my friend the sound was beautiful. Her face smiling beaming in joy.

Jan’s love overflowed her physical being in her human form. Her spirit filled the room with laughter and joy. June the eleventh I thought, I was afraid, her spirit was gone that I would never experience her again. I was wrong. My memories bring her to me. The wisdom she shared with me is always with me. Her jokes, teasing remarks and unconditional love for me is forever within me. Jan was a mentor and a mother spirit to me. I feel her joy and love fill me daily when I need a hug or a nudge her spirit is alive.

Sunday, March 23, 2014

To Journal My Journey: Manifesting a Miracle

Hello Friends,

My hiatus from updating this blog has been long and is now at an end. I appreciate those whom have patiently waited my return. Here I am whole and complete ready to share another journey.

First let me begin with a medical definition. Angiomyolipoma is a fatty benign tumor on the kidney. It is not life threatening. It can be uncomfortable and there is danger of internal bleeding when the tumor begins to grow over 4 cm. The bleeding can be dangerous and painful.

My angiomyolipoma tumor was discovered in  2009 on my right kidney. Since that time it is now 4 cm in size and could begin to bleed. My doctor decided it was time to consider removing this tumor and the surgery was scheduled for 03/21/2014. The surgery has been cancelled. I am relieved and happy about the cancellation of the surgery.

I had a bad feeling about this surgery. I felt it was a bad decision and that transition was imminent if I went under anesthesia. I am at peace so I was following the doctors and my families suggestions that I followed the steps to  proceed with the surgery.  The hospital rescued me from surgery. My deductible has a balance of $771.03 to be met. We do not have that money available to us at this moment, therefore surgery is cancelled.

I have been studying The Unity Movement. The founders of this movement Myrtle and Charles Fillmore are inspirational. I find the story of Myrtle Fillmore especially thrilling given my present circumstance.  Myrtle Fillmore manifested her own miracle and cured herself from tuberculosis. She united her mind, body and spiritual self and manifested a miracle. My brief description above is an over simplification of her actions and journey, but it is the gist of what I intend to do.

My life as of today is not in jeopardy. I am active with my doctors and health care professionals. I am not abandoning modern medicine. I am choosing to be active in my healing. I am choosing to pursue a miracle. I choosing to do something the medical community says can not be done. I am choosing to have my body rid itself of this tumor made of fatty tissue. If in the mean time it begins to bleed I will go to the hospital and have it surgically removed during emergency surgery. If I save the $771.03 in the mean time I will schedule the surgery. God could manifest a miracle by showing me the money. I have no control over the means of a miracle, but I am going to try and manifest my own miracle that this tumor is eliminated from my body.

I will be chronicling my journey here just as I did with my battle with depression, homelessness and following my husband across the United States. I will soon be posting pictures of my prayer and meditation garden. My hope is to help someone else. To inspire someone else to pursue the path less traveled and look for the hope faith brings.